started off the week with a cycle class at the energy lab and i am so happy i got up for the 5:30 start. it was challenging as always and it feels good to start the week (even a vacation week!) by sweating.
the periodization training is over, but the gifts of the effort keep giving. the best thing to come out of it is a new relationship with this community of trainers and exercisers. i’m so grateful for a safe space to sweat!
today i received a prize for making the most programmed workouts for the 6 week program - only having missed 2 i believe (it was the stickers really!). it’s a book of positive affirmations i suppose called In the Garden of Thoughts.
so i start this week with one of the thoughts: Do not become a stranger to yourself by blending in with everyone else.
today was the last day of periodization training at The Energy Lab. i signed myself up as a tactic to help get back into a regular exercise pattern and it wound up hitting me at the root level. it’s helped me learn more about myself and shift some thinking patterns … or atleast my reactions to challenges.
the best example is the time between weeks 4 and 5. i was really struggling, low energy - not good negative talk. i wasn’t giving up, but i was close. in the end, i took a bunch of deep breaths and reminded myself that showing up as best i could was the goal. i didn’t need to beat my score every time (whatever the measurement was), i just needed to practice.
practice managing my heart rate. practice managing my emotions. practice managing my reactions.
by the time the end of week 5 rolled around, my body was feeling better and my mind was stronger. i had some great workouts — and they were fun! and i was so glad that i challenged myself with the hard days so I could experience the fun days. where - in reality - i met even tougher challenges and i was able to push longer and harder. (hehe)
this is really been the craziest experience. at the start i told myself to stay open. and for about two weeks or so, i cried during every work out. changing my mind to allow my body to do the work for the whole class —— at whatever level i could muster was incredibly powerful. and all this emotion was releasing itself from places in my body. letting it go without analyzing it —- why am i crying? what’s the matter with me? —- these were not questions i considered answering. i just let the process work.
next week we will do a benchmark ride to measure progress and then the whole series will start again. new challenges. new wins in my future.
this post is really a reminder for myself. i am so proud of myself for committing to this experience. to myself. AND a reminder that when it gets tough. and i am really challenged —- take a deep breath. it won’t always be that difficult and that experience of working through it will make me stronger.
Opening your heart and being courageous and telling people that you care about them or like them or that you think they’re special only makes you a better, bigger, kinder, softer, more loving person and only attracts more love in your life.
i had a major a-ha moment today. you find a zillion affirmations online about this, so why it took so long for me to really understand this concept is beyond me… we all learn at our own pace and in our own ways.
ok so the lesson… the only way i can fail is by not giving my dreams a go. if i try and fail a thousand times, that’s better than not continuing to learn and grow and work towards my dreams, my goals, my wishes for myself. the only true failure is not making an honest attempt.
of course this isn’t to say that all dreams where no attempt is made are failures, just that the ones i know i really want. the ones i’d like to move closer to… the ones i’m afraid to say outloud…
be vulnerable. be bold. accept yourself as you are today and start where you are, jess. Say It Outloud!
a couple things for you this morning — they have detailed word histories coming back on Google when you ask for a definition! that’s neat!
and I have been thinking a lot about compassion lately. compassion for others and compassion for self — so I looked it up to make sure I knew what it meant. the interesting thing Google told me, in addition to the definition and word history, was its usage over time. if it’s true, that compassion is a missing element in our societies and a key ingredient in self acceptance — this graphic is completely interesting — especially if it’s accurate…