can you move a full 100% towards a goal with relentless determination and drive and still remain a calm, gentle, and zen person?
i had a major a-ha moment today. you find a zillion affirmations online about this, so why it took so long for me to really understand this concept is beyond me… we all learn at our own pace and in our own ways.
ok so the lesson… the only way i can fail is by not giving my dreams a go. if i try and fail a thousand times, that’s better than not continuing to learn and grow and work towards my dreams, my goals, my wishes for myself. the only true failure is not making an honest attempt.
of course this isn’t to say that all dreams where no attempt is made are failures, just that the ones i know i really want. the ones i’d like to move closer to… the ones i’m afraid to say outloud…
be vulnerable. be bold. accept yourself as you are today and start where you are, jess. Say It Outloud!
i’m loving life so much, it’s a shame i have to sleep
a couple things for you this morning — they have detailed word histories coming back on Google when you ask for a definition! that’s neat!
and I have been thinking a lot about compassion lately. compassion for others and compassion for self — so I looked it up to make sure I knew what it meant. the interesting thing Google told me, in addition to the definition and word history, was its usage over time. if it’s true, that compassion is a missing element in our societies and a key ingredient in self acceptance — this graphic is completely interesting — especially if it’s accurate…
become your own perpetual motion machine for <enter dream here>.
i have always been drawn to the symbolism of the phoenix. a red and golden, eagle like bird that lives for 500 -1000 years after which is reborn… the specific details of this rebirth seem to be variable depending upon who is telling the story, but the popular version is that it bursts into flames, nest and all, and out of the ashes it returns.
man do i love a fresh start.
this year has been one of struggle for me. as it is coming to a close, the one thing i have learned for sure is that this is life. whatever the struggle, the blessing, the embarrassment… it’s life. it’s never easy.
in the context of this struggle, my oh-so-wise guru told me the story of the phoenix as a metaphor for this struggle. that these moments of growth or grief or pain are those moments when we are lighting ourselves on fire only to come through on the other side with a more clear view. a fresh start.
thinking of the phoenix with this perspective, i realized that every day i am burning in someway or another. and as such love the story of the phoenix even more. i have way more respect for the firey aspects of this fresh start.
as i was sitting on my couch last night. not reading. not watching tv. not doing anything except for not eating. not going to the store. i was burning. and there will be many more moments like these.
and they are ok. they are the moments that will lead me to another fresh start.
sometimes i think i am not very smart. you know that old saying about doing the same thing over and over and not learning any lessons being the definition of insanity … or something like that.
that is me. i have the opportunity to lose the same 50 pounds again.
in a weird sort of way i’m grateful for it. i am here. and i will learn something new about myself. i get to eat fresh, wholesome foods. i get to enjoy the outdoors.
so, to all others out there that fit the definition of cray-cray — here we go again.
this time around i have a big, hair, audacious goal: to get on the Joy Fit Club! Reaching my goals for health and wellness are enough to drive me forward, but how fun would be to enjoy a glass of wine with Hoda and Kathie Lee — like seriously!